As Tyler Farrar rode by in the other direction, we gave each other a subtle wave; not the wave between friends, but between brothers of the road. On another day, I might have turned around and chased him down, like the first time I’d seen him riding locally. Not so much to bother him or to ride with him, but just to say I’d chased down Tyler Farrar. Not everyone can say that, you know.

But the legs had been missing for days. Weeks, even. It had already been a dark several weeks and there was no end in sight. It wasn’t the weather that was dark, but the form. They can be such cruel things, The Legs. The Legs tend to tell us within a revolution whether we’ll have a good day or not, and every ride I’d been on lately, they spoke only of toilets. On the rare occasion that I would join the Hedrick group rides, I was relegated to riding the wheels or wallowing at the back. On one occasion, I was even the rider who rolled up after the climb as the others waited. I wait at the top of the climb, not the other way around.

It is a cycle that feeds into itself; I was training a little less than usual, but not significantly. Certainly not enough to justify the lack of form. But the bad form was not motivating me to work any harder than I was and it made it very easy to find excuses not to ride. Not training harder means the form slips a bit more every week and before very long, you’re the guy the other riders are waiting for.

Then four days away to visit my parents; we worked long days on the farm but it was only the last two days that we carved out time to ride and even then it was just an hour of the three of us enjoying the moment and being grateful for the time together on two wheels. When I came home, work was waiting and so was my personal life which was all too tempting to indulge in, which I did.

Then the itch came. It started with small things, like noticing that my legs didn’t feel as supple when I walked to work in the morning. Or that my bounds up the stairs didn’t feel as fluid as they normally did. And then I started to miss it. Seven days I counted, seven days off the bike. For the first time since November, by my loose guesstimation.

But it wasn’t just my legs that felt different; my whole body was suffering and so was my mind. It was Monday when I realized I actually wanted to ride again. But it was impossible; too many balls in the air. Tuesday: the same. Today, I was determined to get out, but I was apprehensive of how it would feel to be back on the bike knowing how it feels to ride when you’ve missed a block.

I’ve rarely felt so good on a bike as I did today. I don’t know whether it was the enthusiasm of feeling that sensation of flight as you hover a meter or so above the ground or the rest my body had probably been begging me to give it, but I couldn’t keep myself from pushing harder on the pedals. In anticipation of a first ride back, I chose an easy route. But then I found myself pushing the pace and pointing my front wheel up the various little “bonus” climbs that lay dotted along the route of almost any ride in Seattle.

I can’t wait to climb back on my bike tomorrow. Can’t. Wait.

Be patient, listen to the signals your body is sending. Learn to distinguish between “good” not wanting to ride and “bad” not wanting to ride. And cherish that feeling of childish enthusiasm that awaits when you climb once again upon the bicycle and feel the freedom that pushing on the pedals gives us.

Vive la Vie Velominatus.

frank

The founder of Velominati and curator of The Rules, Frank was born in the Dutch colonies of Minnesota. His boundless physical talents are carefully canceled out by his equally boundless enthusiasm for drinking. Coffee, beer, wine, if it’s in a container, he will enjoy it, a lot of it. He currently lives in Seattle. He loves riding in the rain and scheduling visits with the Man with the Hammer just to be reminded of the privilege it is to feel completely depleted. He holds down a technology job the description of which no-one really understands and his interests outside of Cycling and drinking are Cycling and drinking. As devoted aesthete, the only thing more important to him than riding a bike well is looking good doing it. Frank is co-author along with the other Keepers of the Cog of the popular book, The Rules, The Way of the Cycling Disciple and also writes a monthly column for the magazine, Cyclist. He is also currently working on the first follow-up to The Rules, tentatively entitled The Hardmen. Email him directly at rouleur@velominati.com.

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  • @Neil

    It is amazing how quickly you can stop your glutes from firing by sitting too much.  It only takes about a week before they begin to shut-off.  After my vacation (two weeks) I found that my first few rides were quadricep heavy rides, meaning that my glutes were not very much in play.  Two sessions in the gym squatting that week and they began to fire again.  If they are not firing, your IT band is being over taxed.  Hence your issues.

  • One more thing @Neil.  Check your cleat position.  Too far forward is a recipe for disaster with the knee and IT band.  Sometimes having the center of the cleat a bit behind the ball of the foot is much better than right on the ball of the foot.  This may require you to slide your saddle a bit more forward on the post, but I found more power there and a better stroke action.  But we are all different so...

  • @Sparty

     At 45 years old, there is definitely an Ebb and Flow to training. I got sucked into a riptide this season.

    Wait 'till you're turning 50 and the ebbs and flows feel more like wanting to take the year off ! Cheers

  • @Randy C

    @Sparty

    At 45 years old, there is definitely an Ebb and Flow to training. I got sucked into a riptide this season.

    Wait ’till you’re turning 50 and the ebbs and flows feel more like wanting to take the year off ! Cheers

    Add another decade!  Then it becomes - keep going while you can.

  • I'm 65 and am still able to ride my age in miles each birthday (sorry for the rule violation but 104k doesn't translate well). The first 30 minutes of each ride are slow but I'm thankful for every ride.

  • Been away for a while. What's the consensus on all this "Adventure Bike" nonsense.

    I only ask as potential for a Ridley X Trail coming my way at a price I can't really refuse. Though wouldn't want to burn bridges here.

  • @VeloJello

    Been away for a while. What’s the consensus on all this “Adventure Bike” nonsense.

    I only ask as potential for a Ridley X Trail coming my way at a price I can’t really refuse. Though wouldn’t want to burn bridges here.

    Right bike for the right place?  I don't see any bridges to burn unless you turn up for a local track session or crit on it.

  • @Teocalli

    Ah, that's a relief... The pure breed race bike will be reserved for such occasions. The Niner will also be kept for wet winter roads. Living in Northumberland (aka Winterfell) means an "All Road" bike is a sensible option for when a bridleway or gravel track (lots of old mining waggonways up here) gives you the glad eye.

  • @RobSandy

    @Sparty

    @Neil

    Yikes. Have you found the cause of the IT band issue? Bike fit? Too much training too soon? Hope it is on the mend and you are back on the bike soon.

    I’ve had that sort of knee pain a couple of times over the past couple of years – both times it’s been caused by my saddle height changing by accident.

    Whilst they could easily double as a medieval torture tactic, a regular foam roller session on the ITB & glutes will do wonders for the lower back to knees region.

  • Thank you for a timely article @Frank. Since the Alps week in June which should have been a kick start to proper training I too have added to my book of excuses for not riding as much as I should. My dog is very well walked though, his big expectant eyes and droopy ears draw stronger than the bike right now.

    Your words have motivated me as did a CX blast with 2 club mates on Wednesday when they practiced mounts and dismounts as they waited for me to bible along the trails feeling like I was in the red.

    Proper riding and training commences today. The bad not wanting to ride is banished and if I have to I'll do it early in the morning before the daily shit really starts.

     

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